Gaia Community: Purvaka's Blog

my new website

Thu, 08 May 2008 04:19:24 -0000

Just dropping a line to everyone I know on here to let you guys know about my new website. www.SBBStudios.com

Let me know what you think :D

Purvaka

Getting by in Colorado

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 03:31:39 -0000

guess some where along the way I forgot how hard it is to find work in a small town. The real estate market has gone to hell and that's the reason we moved here. So now we struggle with what lil savings we have left to make it through and find work. It's tough out there and it doesn't help that Mayas father has skipped out on the last $30,000 in child support. BUT I have high hopes to find something soon. Other than the money issues we LOVE it here. The snow and the weather and the views are just stunning. I hope we find a way to stay, I would hate to move back to AZ.

I've learned something new

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 20:43:50 -0000

We have been here in this small town now for a few months and out on a ranch that has it's own lil (very lil) community around it . We live smack in the middle of this ranch and I have learned a valuable lesson about the nature of people. They DON'T want to see others happy. Plain and simple these people hate that my husband and I are So in love with each other and out little family (kids). They have tried to devide us emotionally, mentally, and physically and the more I learn the more I see they will try at any means necassary for them to ruin our happiness. I at first could not fathom why they would want to do these things to us, but it has come to my attention that "some" people have betting issues using other peoples lives as the principle. We have now become said "principle" and we now struggle to find ways to out smart these people. We can't move (not enough money) and we can't just ignore them because we work with and for them. I try to center myself around my family and not allow those people with shallow minds and souls to ruin what we have been so lucky to have found in each other. It's amazing what people of "faith" try to do to other people for fun.

Updates and Such

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 06:37:00 -0000

I haven't posted on here for a long while. We moved to Colorado Springs Colorado and we're very happy. We've encountered a few shallow souls who seem to enjoy the gossip of life more than actually living it, but all in all we are happy. We've been trying to finish our real estate classes ASAP to take our exams. other than that not much to tell. The kids are great and just as happy and Maya finally gets her wish to live on a ranch with horses (whom she spends all day with).

Getting better

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 19:42:36 -0000

I've had the flu, a summer flu always seems to feel worse and when the sun is shining and the birds are singing it seems to make me feel sad. Almost like the happiness of nature is mocking my sickness. Now I know that isn't true but it always seems that way when i'm down for the count. On the upside of things, I've been selling some of my work on Etsy as of late. That makes me feel real good knowing people enjoy what I've created. The move is a slow go at this point, I couldn't pack with the flu and now I have to start sorting everything out again. Fun fun! Ending my blog on a happy note, I can finally get back to my full yoga sessions.

Maya

Mon, 28 May 2007 19:34:24 -0000

Maya graduated from Jr High with honors this last week, and they had a huge ceremony for her class. I'm very proud of who she has turned out to be, Not only is she beautiful, talented and smart, she also has a huge loving heart after all she has been through in life she still can love.

I know the pic isn't the best but it ended up with interesting lighting

coping

Tue, 15 May 2007 22:16:05 -0000

Sometimes things look much better on the surface. This move is a great thing for all of us, but it's full of stresses and upsets along the way. I admit I'm not so good at change especially when it's forced on me, I am very much my own person and when others try and make me dress their way and be like them I tend to run in the other direction. My mother in law (and I feel the rest of the family up there) sees me as some sort of misfit project to fix, I'm in no way in need of their kind of fixing. I like who I am and how I dress, I like that I am a tree hugger who wants to make the world a better place. I don't like that they are not open to my point of view. I'm trying to deal with all of this in such a short space of time. I have 6 weeks to finish packing and cleaning this house, I have to finish school and I have tons of mom thing I must do this summer for Maya. The list is huge and I'm stressing out.

I normally do yoga to help with stress but since I've been back that's been real hard. See while on this trip to Co we left our 3 dogs and 1 cat here and had a pet sitter come in 2 times a day and take care of them. Well our dogs for some reason (and we really don't know why) they killed our beloved cat and in the space where I do yoga. Now I'm haunted by visions of my cat and the fight she lost for her life while we were gone. I've tried to do yoga since our return but I can't find focus or center in this space. I really have no place else to do yoga here (until I pack up another room). To top it off my mother in law wanted me to put my dogs to sleep for being dogs, and when our other cat became depressed (he was at the vet because he's diabetic) she thought we should put him down too. Sigh I just feel like every place I turn someone else is trying to live my life for me and all I want to do is run as far as I can as fast as I can. I guess I just needed to vent all this to anyone who reads this.

Why do people feel the need to self impose their thoughts and lives on others??

Crunch time!

Fri, 11 May 2007 16:19:05 -0000

It's been a long 2 weeks. The visit to Colorado went very well and our move date is now pushed up to July 1st. Now I'm just trying to cram everything into a month and 1/2. I have to pack up 2200 sqft house, host my father-in-law this weekend for my husbands b-day, help Maya with her 8th grade graduation week (parties, school functions, etc, etc), put together a 20 kid b-day/moving party/sleepover for Mayas's 15th b day. finish real estate school, be a wife and mother in there someplace, and choreograph this move all by july 1st!! Fun Fun!!!

New photography

Tue, 01 May 2007 05:22:55 -0000

On my trip to Colorado I took these pic's.

Pet Food

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 19:52:39 -0000

I've decided to start making our pets food myself. We have been watching the turn of events with the pet foods the last few weeks and we're so very upset with the realization that given the perfect health of 2 of our cats and their sudden rapid deaths, that they most likely were victims of this pet food situation. we are now left with 3 dogs that have finally stopped being physically sick to their stomachs and 2 cats 1 healthy and one the product of Iams recall situation, our poor ash is now stuck on insulin for the rest of his life. Here I was buying them what I thought was the best food I could and look what happens. I feel badly for my cat Kat, she became sick and I tried to make her better and let her have as much wet food as she wanted.

So now I have decided that to keep the pets of this family safe I need to take care of them like I take care of us. Fresh natural foods not from a can.

So if anyone has any helpful tips on good recipes for pet food please let me know.

Colorado

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 19:13:53 -0000

We seem to be off on a grand adventure in July, off and away to Colorado where we've accepted a job offer. We're very excite and very nervous, I'm just a anxiety filled mother of 2 but my husband grew up here and has lived here most of his life. I've lived in NY, NJ, NM and AZ so I'm not as freaked out about the environment (country living) as much as I am making sure we're able to support our family up there.

I'm looking forward to skiing again (I haven't done that since the 90's) and growing my own veggies, living in the woods and just finally having that space I love so much.

I'm finally getting out of the desert.

Dead Beat Dads

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 02:12:56 -0000

I feel badly for my daughter, not only does she have to deal with the emotional rejection from a parent but she's reminded of it monthly when we get an update telling us he still hasn't paid on his child support and now its racked up to $26,000.00. The state tries to help but with the laws, loop holes and lack of funding to support the programs, they can't keep up with all the dead beat dad cases. It's a sad testament to our times when we can have all these wonderful things and advancements but can't get men to pay for their own children. So if you know of a Martin Thomas Beck born in 67 living in California, please contact me with that information, my daughter has a right to higher education and he owes her that money, it's seriously the least he can do.

-and a side note to Marty, I have always made it easy to find us so you have no excuses for not seeing your little girl, and shame on you for being so cheap that you cant send her 300 a month. If you had at least tried to know her she would have understood your financial situation. You will regret missing out on her life one day and by then it will be too late to fix your mistakes, I honestly feel sorry for you, how you sleep at night is beyond me.

New Camera

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 03:31:09 -0000

I love this new Camera. I haven't had the time I would like to go out and explore with it since the family is on winter break until monday. Once I get out there and take some good pics I'll post new ones.

Wonderful trip to Las Vegas

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 21:27:11 -0000

We had a great time in Vegas and plan to return there in March 07. We stayed at the Bellagio and I got to take some great pics of the Chihuly exhibit. What an interesting place, and not at all as sinful as people like to think, like any city those places of sin have to be looked for, and like every city they are there. No need to go to Vegas to find those places, their all around. The attractions were amazing, the shark aquarium, the Bellagio fountain, the casinos and all the shows and theaters. We even got to see a not so great magic act in the Aladdin, and a peanut of a girl contort into a pretzel and shoot a bow and arrow at a target with her feet LOL. What fun! The poor kids had to walk though and 15 miles in 3 days was to much for them LOL.

Making new friends and going on vacation

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 13:36:02 -0000

I've been making some real nice friends on here this week and wanted to thank everyone for all the wonderful emails. I'm sorry if I seem not to answer in the next few days, but I will be out of town in Vegas, enjoying family time with the in- laws. I hope everyone has a great week and I will email everyone back when I get home (even emails sent yesterday as I have had no time with packing a family of 4 to get out the door by 8AM LOL)

-Shannon

photography

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 17:24:12 -0000

No deep thoughts today. Just a bit of my photography ...wish I had a better cam :-?....

Death

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 19:30:50 -0000

So I've been blogging in my other personal blog about death, and I will copy and paste my entry from that one into this one. I get a lot of flack for my interest in the after life but honestly I'm not a morbid soul, I'm a soul that likes to find the answers.

my blog:

Ever wonder about more than the laundry, or how to pay the bills, what clothes to wear to dinner or how to get the kids through college? Is there anyone out there that still contemplates the universe of living and dead? Sometimes I wonder how people can believe in their religions so faithfully. Pearly gates, are you serious, harps and cupids, or maybe even nothing at all? I have been listening to a lot of EVP's lately and have quite a few of my own from our last apartment that are freaky. I know there is "something" after death, what that something is I intend to find out while still living.

Some theories are as follows... it's a loop in time or a "recording" of the past imprinted in time. I have a problem with this theory. If it's stuck in a loop, that loop would be stuck in that moment in time and would repeat over and over again at the point in time not continuing over and over till the present, that's not a loop that's a skip. Another theory is time curves with space (we know this to be the case in relativity and quantum mechanics) so maybe it's a time warp, but this goes in the theory that we can't interact with said "ghosts". I know we can interact with ghost's I've done it and so has my family. So throwing out the loop and warp theory what does that leave?

Let's say ghosts are dead people that we can interact with. Why do they hang around their dead rotting bodies? Why are they all together in cemeteries? Why do people ask those questions they can read the answers to on headstones? Are they on the same physical plane as us? Can they see the cemetery? Do they see something else? Are they lost?

I have listened to full conversation EVP's of ghosts that were several ghosts talking clearly about the people recording them. The can see us (sometimes at least) and they can see each other. They aren't so degenerated mentally that they can't move on, so why are they there? And what exactly is "there" to them?

I get a lot of flack for my interest in the after life, but honestly I just want to know what my future holds. I'm a planner; I like to know what I can expect with some degree of accuracy. If there is nothing at all after death then I have to ask myself... what is the point of life in the first place? If there is nothing at all after life, then what have we been hearing? Who are they and what do they want?

Talk amongst yourselves.

-just one site to check out in the sea of teh intarwebs> http://www.mcmsys.com/~brammer/

Anyone with any thoughts or answers on the subject please feel free to email me :D

LMAO

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 06:26:29 -0000

ALL I have to say today in this blog is : Chicken Pox!!! Yes, I have the chicken pox for the 4th time now!!!!, and I'm about over it. At least it was about a 2 decade span between the last time I had them and now LOL.

This is a good lesson to people who dont get their kids immunized!!! Thanx Mom, Thanx Dad....sigh......

Latest painting ...

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 03:32:55 -0000

"while you're there can you get me some toast?" Acrylic on canvas 8" X 5 1/2" This painting isn't finished. I would say it is about 3/4 done.

updated painting

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 01:11:13 -0000

I have since updated that painting (still a work in progress, but have my hands on another painting at the moment)