coping

Sometimes things look much better on the surface.  This move is a great thing for all of us, but it's full of stresses and upsets along the way.  I admit I'm not so good at change especially when it's forced on me, I am very much my own person and when others try and make me dress their way and be like them I tend to run in the other direction.  My mother in law (and I feel the rest of the family up there) sees me as some sort of misfit project to fix, I'm in no way in need of their kind of fixing.  I like who I am and how I dress, I like that I am a tree hugger who wants to make the world a better place.  I don't like that they are not open to my point of view.   I'm trying to deal with all of this in such a short space of time.  I have 6 weeks to finish packing and cleaning this house, I have to finish school and I have tons of mom thing I must do this summer for Maya.  The list is huge and I'm stressing out.

     I normally do yoga to help with stress but since I've been back that's been real hard.  See while on this trip to Co we left our 3 dogs and 1 cat here and had a pet sitter come in 2 times a day and take care of them.  Well our dogs for some reason (and we really don't know why) they killed our beloved cat and in the space where I do yoga.  Now I'm haunted by visions of my cat and the fight she lost for her life while we were gone.  I've tried to do yoga since our return but I can't find focus or center in this space.  I really have no place else to do yoga here (until I pack up another room).  To top it off  my mother in law wanted me to put my dogs to sleep for being dogs, and when our other cat became depressed (he was at the vet because he's diabetic) she thought we should put him down too.  Sigh I just feel like every place I turn someone else is trying to live my life for me and all I want to do is run as far as I can as fast as I can.  I guess I just needed to vent all this to anyone who reads this.

Why do people feel the need to self impose their thoughts and lives on others??