Just dropping a line to everyone I know on here to let you guys know about my new website.    www.SBBStudios.com 

Let me know what you think :D

Purvaka

guess some where along the way I forgot how hard it is to find work in a small town. The real estate market has gone to hell and that's the reason we moved here.  So now we struggle with what lil savings we have left to make it through and find work.  It's tough out there and it doesn't help that Mayas father has skipped out on the last $30,000 in child support.  BUT I have high hopes to find something soon.  Other than the money issues we LOVE it here.  The snow and the weather and the views are just stunning.  I hope we find a way to stay, I would hate to move back to AZ.

We have been here in this small town now for a few months and out on a ranch that has it's own lil (very lil) community around it .  We live smack in the middle of this ranch and I have learned a valuable lesson about the nature of people.  They DON'T want to see others happy.  Plain and simple these people hate that my husband and I are So in love with each other and out little family (kids).  They have tried to devide us emotionally, mentally, and physically and the more I learn the more I see they will try at any means necassary for them to ruin our happiness.  I at first could not fathom why they would want to do these things to us, but it has come to my attention that "some" people have betting issues using other peoples lives as the principle.  We have now become said "principle" and we now struggle to find ways to out smart these people.  We can't move (not enough money) and we can't just ignore them because we work with and for them.  I try to center myself around my family and not allow those people with shallow minds and souls to ruin what we have been so lucky to have found in each other.  It's amazing what people of "faith" try to do to other people for fun.

I haven't posted on here for a long while.  We moved to Colorado Springs Colorado and we're very happy.  We've encountered a few shallow souls who seem to enjoy the gossip of life more than actually living it, but all in all we are happy.  We've been trying to finish our real estate classes ASAP to take our exams.  other than that not much to tell.  The kids are great and just as happy and Maya finally gets her wish to live on a ranch with horses (whom she spends all day with).

I've had the flu, a summer flu always seems to feel worse and when the sun is shining and the birds are singing it seems to make me feel sad.  Almost like the happiness of nature is mocking my sickness.  Now I know that isn't true but it always seems that way when i'm down for the count.  On the upside of things, I've been selling some of my work on Etsy as of late. That makes me feel real good knowing people enjoy what I've created.  The move is a slow go at this point, I couldn't pack with the flu and now I have to start sorting everything out again.  Fun fun!  Ending my blog on a happy note, I can finally get back to my full yoga sessions.

Maya graduated from Jr High with honors this last week, and they had a huge ceremony for her class.  I'm very proud of who she has turned out to be, Not only is she beautiful, talented and smart, she also has a huge loving heart after all she has been through in life she still can love.   

I know the pic isn't the best but it ended up with interesting lighting

 

Sometimes things look much better on the surface.  This move is a great thing for all of us, but it's full of stresses and upsets along the way.  I admit I'm not so good at change especially when it's forced on me, I am very much my own person and when others try and make me dress their way and be like them I tend to run in the other direction.  My mother in law (and I feel the rest of the family up there) sees me as some sort of misfit project to fix, I'm in no way in need of their kind of fixing.  I like who I am and how I dress, I like that I am a tree hugger who wants to make the world a better place.  I don't like that they are not open to my point of view.   I'm trying to deal with all of this in such a short space of time.  I have 6 weeks to finish packing and cleaning this house, I have to finish school and I have tons of mom thing I must do this summer for Maya.  The list is huge and I'm stressing out.

     I normally do yoga to help with stress but since I've been back that's been real hard.  See while on this trip to Co we left our 3 dogs and 1 cat here and had a pet sitter come in 2 times a day and take care of them.  Well our dogs for some reason (and we really don't know why) they killed our beloved cat and in the space where I do yoga.  Now I'm haunted by visions of my cat and the fight she lost for her life while we were gone.  I've tried to do yoga since our return but I can't find focus or center in this space.  I really have no place else to do yoga here (until I pack up another room).  To top it off  my mother in law wanted me to put my dogs to sleep for being dogs, and when our other cat became depressed (he was at the vet because he's diabetic) she thought we should put him down too.  Sigh I just feel like every place I turn someone else is trying to live my life for me and all I want to do is run as far as I can as fast as I can.  I guess I just needed to vent all this to anyone who reads this.

Why do people feel the need to self impose their thoughts and lives on others??

It's been a long 2 weeks.  The visit to Colorado went very well and our move date is now pushed up to July 1st.  Now I'm just trying to cram everything into a month and 1/2.  I have to pack up 2200 sqft house, host my father-in-law this weekend for my husbands b-day, help Maya with her 8th grade graduation week (parties, school functions, etc, etc), put together a 20 kid b-day/moving party/sleepover for Mayas's 15th b day.  finish real estate school, be a wife and mother in there someplace, and choreograph this move  all by july 1st!!   Fun Fun!!!

On my trip to Colorado I took these pic's.

I've decided to start making our pets food myself.  We have been watching the turn of events with the pet foods the last few weeks and we're so very upset with the realization that given the perfect health of 2 of our cats and their sudden rapid deaths, that they most likely were victims of this pet food situation.  we are now left with 3 dogs that have finally stopped being physically sick to their stomachs and 2 cats 1 healthy  and one the product of Iams recall situation, our poor ash is now stuck on insulin for the rest of his life.  Here I was buying them what I thought was the best food I could and look what happens.  I feel badly for my cat Kat, she became sick and I tried to make her better and let her have as much wet food as she wanted. 

So now I have decided that to keep the pets of this family safe I need to take care of them like I take care of us.  Fresh natural foods not from a can. 

So if anyone has any helpful tips on good recipes for pet food please let me know.